Leibster Award

Leibster Award! This was such a surprise!

Thank you http://rroopeshkumar.wordpress.com/ for the nomination!

This nomination is such a huge deal for new writers like myself! Thank you for the kind words and inspiration.

The rules go on in this way :

1. Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.

2. Display the award on your blog — by including it in your post and/or displaying it using a “widget” or a “gadget”. (Note that the best way to do this is to save the image to your own computer and then upload it to your blog post.)

3. Answer 11 questions about yourself, which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.

4. Provide 11 random facts about yourself.

5. Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have a less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can always ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display a widget that lets the readers know this information!)

6. Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.

7. List these rules in your post (You can copy and paste from here.) Once you have written and published it, you then have to:

8. Inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn about it (they might not have ever heard of it!

Second Step: Facts generation.

1. Writing is cathartic for me, I need it. Whether it’s with pen and paper or with a keyboard I NEED to let it out.

2. I worry everyday if I’m doing my best as a parent.

3. Even when I desperately need a break or an hour to myself, I can’t function without my children. I feel like I’m missing a limb.

4. I love love. Everything about love makes me happy. Including the word “love”.

5. I was born and raised in a small town with one stoplight. After swearing I would leave and never come back all of my life, I could never leave.

6. I’ve always been told that I have an old soul. I believe I’m in the wrong generation. I like simplicity, and I’m old fashioned in a lot of ways.

7. I am a good cook but I’m so afraid of trying new things for the fear of failure. Yet, when I do attempt something new my family always seems pleased.

8. I am a complete contradiction. I love and hate chaos. I stress over stress and I’m my best/worst critic.

9. Music always makes me feel better. It soothes my soul.

10. I spend more time planning out something in my mind than I actually spend doing whatever it is I’ve planned.

11. Philosophy of life: ”anything worth having is worth fighting for.”

Questions Answered.

*Why do you write?

(Ans) I simply have to. I can take a week, month, 6 months away from writing but the moment I pick up a pen everything comes out like mental/emotional vomit.

*Which emotion do you love to convey while writing?

(Ans) inspiration? Not intentionally, but when I look over things I’ve written or read feedbac, people always say it’s inspirational.

*What’s your philosophy of life?

(Ans) “Anything worth having is worth fighting for.”
*The most memorable instance in your life.

(Ans) the day I held my first born. My world was turned upside down, everything I ever thought I knew before changed. My perception on life changed completely. I become a parent, a guardian, a nurse, a provider. I gave life and stability to another human being. I became a mother.

*Arrange in your priority order:

(Ans)Hope, Help, Forgiveness, Romance, Money.

*If you are given the power to be God for a day, what will you do?

(Ans)Oddly enough, I’ve never thought about it. I guess I would start by healing the sick. As a parent with a child diagnosed with an incurable sickness I would heal everyone. Feed the hungry, give shelter to those without, and I suppose once everyone else was well and safe, I would clean up our government! The only way to fix this world is to put God back where he belongs. In charge.


*Name three people you would die for.

(Ans) my children, my husband, thirdly? That’s a tough one, I would give my life for so many well deserving people (assuming my family was taken care of?)

*What’s your biggest fear in life?

(Ans) That I will fail my children. I want so much for them. I want them to understand love, gratitude, and how to respect other people. I’ve tried to show my children how to see people for who they truly are, not what they look like but even in 2014 that is so hard with the judgemental world we live in. I just want them to have a good heart, love God and love his creations.

*If you are given a time machine, will you change anything in the past?

(Ans) I couldn’t change anything for fear of losing something in the present. I may go back and visit, but never change anything.

*The city you would love to settle down for your life.

(Ans) It’s a cheesy one, but I would follow my husband anywhere. My mission in life is to have a successful marriage, and family. Home is where ever we are together.

*Happiness is? Complete the line.

(Ans) happiness is seen and the unseen. It is a feeling, an emotion, place, or person. Happiness is something that is different for everyone. For me, it’s my husband, and two children.








If I could dance with my father again.

Throughout life you will find that as people come and go, some never really leave. I was thirteen years old when he passed away. He was and is still the greatest man I ever knew. My popa. In my mind he was the most honest, loving, and caring person to ever walk the earth. He was my knight in shining armor, my Prince charming, he was my hero. Actually, he still is my hero. He served for his country would have proudly done it again. He spent his days hunting and fishing before diabetes ultimately took his site. We spent our afternoons building things in the shed and making messes for my Nanny to clean up. He may have been set in his ways but I can’t recall a time he ever told me no.

To know him was to love him. He was the first man in my life, and set the bar pretty high for what a man should be. I know most kids enjoy spending time with their grandparents, but he was far more than just a “popa” to me. There was an unspoken bond between the two us. I remember asking one time “how could ever get married?!?!? There will be no dad to give me away!” He gave me this silly face and said “well, I wasn’t going to let just anybody take you off! Figure I’ll meet him first and I might let him have you.” I knew from that moment on, he would fulfill any “daddy duty” we encountered.

Sadly, he never made it to wedding day. To honor him, his photo was with us at the arch my husband and I exchanged our vows under. My actual father and I dedicated the “father-daughter” dance at my wedding to him. It was an extremely emotional moment for everyone, but I know that for every second that passed, he was with me. I was able to dance with home again (so to speak). That was the song played. Today he is weighing heavily on my mind and I hope that everyday since he has passed he’s been proud of who I am and who I am becoming.


To my popa, my hero, this one’s for you.

When you’re not enough, remember this…

“No matter how good of a woman you are, you will never be good enough to a man who isn’t ready.”


Words to live by no doubt. We’ve all had that one relationship or person that just couldn’t or wouldn’t work and yet we spent countless times trying to force it. When I was in high school, I thought I knew everything, had all the answers and you couldn’t tell me anything. Looking back, I am so grateful for all of the missed opportunities and unanswered prayers. My husband and I have known each other our entire lives and even though we maintained a good friendship, timing was always off. He was seeing someone or I was busy running my parents crazy. Funny how we look at things later isn’t it? Blessed is the understatement of the century.

I’ll never forget the first time he picked me up to “ride through town”. To this day I can tell you where I was at, what I was doing, and at least 90% of our conversation via text messaging. I knew walking out the door things would change, but I could have never guessed how much. From that moment on we where inseparable. Don’t get me wrong, it was nothing short of a whirlwind we were caught up in but, it was my whirlwind and I’ve never been real afraid of rough weather. I knew that we where in for it. I also knew there was nowhere else I’d rather be or anyone else I’d rather be in it with. My husband saved me. Whether he knew it then or if he even knows it now, he saved me.

Truthfully, I never thought I’d get married or I assumed I would end up with some “asphalt cowboy” as Jason Aldean so eloquently put it. Someone too busy chasing a living or a dream to settle down with little old me. We talked several times about marriage and I assumed the same for him. He’d marry some high school sweetheart and settle in right here. Funny how fate intervenes. It’s something you just can’t avoid. I am so glad it came knocking when it did and not a moment too soon. The most valuable lesson I’ve learned is that happiness isn’t always easy to find, and life is entirely too short. Enjoy it, when the right “Mr. Right” shows up it will be well worth the wait.

My husband far exceeds any and all expectations I had. He is loving, kind, hard-working, and dedicated. Most importantly, he reminds me that I’m just right for him. He loves and appreciates me flaws and all. He was worth the wait, the heartache, and the happy ending. If you have found yourself wondering if it’s time to close the book, I don’t have that answer. I don’t know your story or your pain. What I do know is life has a way of working itself out. Sometimes things fall apart for the sole purpose of better things coming together. This isn’t Cinderella and sometimes the shoe just doesn’t fit.