Face the journey.

Often times we get so caught up in trying to fix, explain, and resolve every little bump in the road that we loose our place in our journey. Life isn’t about correcting the wrong, or straightening the crooked. To put it simply, life is about living. You can’t live out your days trying to please those that aren’t happy. You just….live and you live to the best of your ability.

20140724-132042.jpg(Lords knows I’ve had more dogs than stones.)

People will come and people will go. Some stay longer than others and some always come back. The point is that fate will intervene and even when you feel like you are completely lost or alone, you will look up and realize it’s the road you’ve been looking for all along. The Lord will never forsake you.

Teaching love.

Life can be messy and sometimes we try so hard to instill certain values in our children that we force another belief on them completely. If I had one wish it would be that my children stay open to love and remain innocent on their views. I want to give my children love and teach them to form friendships with others based on character not color, and behavior not belongings. There is something so pure in the love of a child. They don’t care about materialistic things, how you look, or what shoes you wear. They like you and befriend you simply because they like you and that’s all that matters. We could all learn a little something from our kids….

Water Your Own Grass.

Instead of being envious of the neighbors grass and wondering how it became so green, water your own. Take the time to pull the weeds from your own yard and give it the attention it deserves. The results may just surprise you. It is much easier and cheaper to maintain your own yard than pay the price of buying another.

Where’s the filter?

The hardest part of parenting is when a kiss can’t fix a “boo boo”.


Time and time again I have had others ask about Chance. If he is sick again, when was his last surgery, or any news on a possible cure? My answers are almost always the same. Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck on repeat. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a total optimist and I believe without a shadow of doubt the day is coming when he’ll receive a total miracle. Sometimes I think people just forget that I am human too.

I’m pretty open about what we’ve been through and I try to inform others but sometimes, well sometimes people just don’t use their brain. One time I actually had a woman in the local grocery store approach me and ask the usual questions. (I call it the top 5.)

“What’s wrong with him.”

” Can’t they fix it?”

“When will he have surgery again?”

“How did you find out?”

“Why haven’t they found a cure?”


When she asked “How do they fix it?” Trying hard not to sound irritated I answered, “there is no cure.” Her response was worse than the 10 minute interrogation on aisle 3. “Wow! That must suck!” I was at a loss for words. I decided in that moment it was best to avoid making a public scene and I politely just walked away. Had my son not been sitting in the grocery cart, I may have been the next mugshot on our county sheriff’s report. I learned then that sometimes, some people just don’t deserve a response. I can’t allow myself to get upset, or mad when my main focus should be finding new answers.

Yesterday, taking the boys to VBS (vacation bible school) one asked if Chance was sick because he was losing his voice. Not at all a problem, there was nothing rude about it. He doesn’t cry about or get upset. This is something new to both of us. The answer is relatively simple but not for a child. Chance completed his 13th surgery recently. With each surgery he has acquired more scar tissue. The scar tissue is sitting above his voice box, at times it vibrates down and cause his voice to become mute. We aren’t sure how long this will last or if it will ever go away. We’ve talked several times about reconstructive surgery but the timing is always off.

Shortly after getting out of the car, another child (a family member) says “What’s wrong with his voice? He sounds funny. Will it come back?” It’s hard to answer so many questions so suddenly. It’s really heartbreaking when his feelings are hurt. A skinned knee I can handle, a bump on the head, is not the end of the world. I don’t have the all the answers or the power to fix emotional boo boo’s. We as parents need to teach our children how to handle different. Other than his voice, my child looks like every other child out there. It makes my heart hurt for him and even more for those that have it harder. I try extremely hard not to blow up in those moments and set an example for my children. I try to remain polite and kind when I really want to sharpen my momma bear claws and rip you a new one. Parents, get a filter and give your kid one too!

Toddler, 4, Drowns During Pool Party While Guests Sing ‘Happy Birthday’


This is heartbreaking. Such a joyous occasion turned tragic.

Originally posted on Hollywood Life:

This is awful. A little girl drowned in a 4-feet-deep pool while party guests were singing ‘Happy Birthday’ to another child. Adult guests desperately tried to save the little girl with CPR, but it was too late.

At a birthday party for a 1-year-old child, a 4-year-old little girl tragically drowned in a 4-feet-deep pool while the guests were singing “Happy Birthday.” Guests spotted the little girl drowning after the song was finished and tried administering CPR, but unfortunately they were not able to save her. So sad.

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Leibster Award

Leibster Award! This was such a surprise!

Thank you http://rroopeshkumar.wordpress.com/ for the nomination!

This nomination is such a huge deal for new writers like myself! Thank you for the kind words and inspiration.

The rules go on in this way :

1. Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.

2. Display the award on your blog — by including it in your post and/or displaying it using a “widget” or a “gadget”. (Note that the best way to do this is to save the image to your own computer and then upload it to your blog post.)

3. Answer 11 questions about yourself, which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.

4. Provide 11 random facts about yourself.

5. Nominate 5 – 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have a less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can always ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display a widget that lets the readers know this information!)

6. Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.

7. List these rules in your post (You can copy and paste from here.) Once you have written and published it, you then have to:

8. Inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn about it (they might not have ever heard of it!

Second Step: Facts generation.

1. Writing is cathartic for me, I need it. Whether it’s with pen and paper or with a keyboard I NEED to let it out.

2. I worry everyday if I’m doing my best as a parent.

3. Even when I desperately need a break or an hour to myself, I can’t function without my children. I feel like I’m missing a limb.

4. I love love. Everything about love makes me happy. Including the word “love”.

5. I was born and raised in a small town with one stoplight. After swearing I would leave and never come back all of my life, I could never leave.

6. I’ve always been told that I have an old soul. I believe I’m in the wrong generation. I like simplicity, and I’m old fashioned in a lot of ways.

7. I am a good cook but I’m so afraid of trying new things for the fear of failure. Yet, when I do attempt something new my family always seems pleased.

8. I am a complete contradiction. I love and hate chaos. I stress over stress and I’m my best/worst critic.

9. Music always makes me feel better. It soothes my soul.

10. I spend more time planning out something in my mind than I actually spend doing whatever it is I’ve planned.

11. Philosophy of life: ”anything worth having is worth fighting for.”

Questions Answered.

*Why do you write?

(Ans) I simply have to. I can take a week, month, 6 months away from writing but the moment I pick up a pen everything comes out like mental/emotional vomit.

*Which emotion do you love to convey while writing?

(Ans) inspiration? Not intentionally, but when I look over things I’ve written or read feedbac, people always say it’s inspirational.

*What’s your philosophy of life?

(Ans) “Anything worth having is worth fighting for.”
*The most memorable instance in your life.

(Ans) the day I held my first born. My world was turned upside down, everything I ever thought I knew before changed. My perception on life changed completely. I become a parent, a guardian, a nurse, a provider. I gave life and stability to another human being. I became a mother.

*Arrange in your priority order:

(Ans)Hope, Help, Forgiveness, Romance, Money.

*If you are given the power to be God for a day, what will you do?

(Ans)Oddly enough, I’ve never thought about it. I guess I would start by healing the sick. As a parent with a child diagnosed with an incurable sickness I would heal everyone. Feed the hungry, give shelter to those without, and I suppose once everyone else was well and safe, I would clean up our government! The only way to fix this world is to put God back where he belongs. In charge.


*Name three people you would die for.

(Ans) my children, my husband, thirdly? That’s a tough one, I would give my life for so many well deserving people (assuming my family was taken care of?)

*What’s your biggest fear in life?

(Ans) That I will fail my children. I want so much for them. I want them to understand love, gratitude, and how to respect other people. I’ve tried to show my children how to see people for who they truly are, not what they look like but even in 2014 that is so hard with the judgemental world we live in. I just want them to have a good heart, love God and love his creations.

*If you are given a time machine, will you change anything in the past?

(Ans) I couldn’t change anything for fear of losing something in the present. I may go back and visit, but never change anything.

*The city you would love to settle down for your life.

(Ans) It’s a cheesy one, but I would follow my husband anywhere. My mission in life is to have a successful marriage, and family. Home is where ever we are together.

*Happiness is? Complete the line.

(Ans) happiness is seen and the unseen. It is a feeling, an emotion, place, or person. Happiness is something that is different for everyone. For me, it’s my husband, and two children.